Spiritual awakening is damned inconvenient at the best of times.
The awakening of kundalini appears to be a major
autonomic shock to the whole organism. The shock, panic, anxiety and
depression can occur regardless of the conditions in one's life or the
personal contents of one's mind, and despite whatever story or
explanation we give ourselves as to what is happening to us. This is
probably due to the penetration of the veil of conditioning, and also
the hyper-activation of the adrenal glands, with massive changes in the
"The sudden forced arousal to activity of this hitherto inactive
center creates a condition analogous to that created by a serious
accident." P.21 Living With Kundalini, Gopi Krishna
The autonomic shock could also be an expression of the unconsciousness
and organic blockages that are becoming apparent with the amplification
of energy and consciousness. That is the ego becomes aware that it was
only masquerading and was "not our Self" by the Self's sudden
appearance and the collapse of our known worldview. This
"disillusionment" can create an intractable ineffable shock and
depression in the beginning stages of the awakening. The ego-mind can't
really make sense of this shock for it happens well below conscious
awareness and is unrelated to the daily world, but is simply a phase of
the physiology of the metamorphic process.
Philip St. Romain relates his ideas on the changes in the autonomic nervous system:
The sympathetic nerves constrict blood vessels in the
skin and most visera. This leads to an increase in heart rate and
faster breathing, both of which are observed during meditation. It may
also explain the heat experienced on the skin--particularly the
shoulders. One is reminded here of yogis drying cold, wet sheets with
The sympathetic nerves dilate blood vessels in the skeletal
muscles. This allows more blood to be taken to the sketetal muscles.
Presumably, this once served as an adaptive role in running from
danger. During kundalini, it serves to carry more nutrients to muscle
tissues being healed from emotional pain.
Sympathetic nerves stimulate glycogenolysis, which increases
blood sugar. This serves to keep the body energized in the state of
heightened nervous activity. The Hindu's concern for proper diet may
also be related to this effect.
Sympathetic nerves stimulate adrenalin secretion, which elevates
heat rate and brings the body into a higher state of preparedness. This
is also an undeniable effect of meditation, which, paradoxically,
results in an eventual lowering the threshold of excitability.
Consequently, meditators do not become stressed easily." P.87
After the first major opening of the influx (Sex with Eros) I
experienced a corresponding major contraction. I call this particular
contraction the White Death because blood leaves the skin
surface and the skin turns white; one doesn't have much motor control
and feels dispossessed during this event. That is one goes into shock.
During the "White Death" shock and the ongoing general meta-activation
of the sympathetic nervous, the adrenals are highly active and blood is
removed away from the body surface and sent to the sketetal muscles.
Perhaps this is tied into the changes in the production of immune cells
in the bone marrow during metamorphosis.
At this time the nervous system would be flooding the body with a
certain mix of neuropeptides that would signal the cells to change from
their normal function into the transmutation mode. The fact that
neuropeptides are the molecules of emotion, and that this alchemy
occurs of its own accord and there is nothing much we can do about it,
helps explain why the early stages of a sudden awakening can be so
During the initial stages of the awakening there is a radical
activation of the adrenals and sympathetic nervous system, which
essentially is the fight-flight response. So great is this sympathetic
activation during the influx stage that the digestive system purges.
Digestion is activated by parasympathic or the rest-relaxation side of
the nervous system and with the crisis instigated by the radical
sympathetic activation the parasympathetic is equally activating
leading to the body rapidly purging the intestinal tract so that more
energy can be available for strategic thinking for fight-flight. The
purging is essential first, so that when the shock phase hits the
digestive system is relatively empty, for the intestines and the
visceral organs go into an intense contraction. Perhaps this
contraction is necessary in order to reset the function of the organs
into the transmutation mode. Note that while the body is purging it is
best to avoid eating food. Instead a little fruit or fresh squeezed
vegetable juice should be fine, but only if the desire for it is there.
The first awakening appears to be more of a "shock" to the system
than subsequent awakenings, even if subsequent awakenings are more
"intense." In my first awakening when I was 28 years I lost 30 lbs in
nervous energy and my period ceased for 6 months.
During the White Death of the 2000 awakening the autonomic shock my
body went into of its own accord was perhaps equivalent to seeing a
nuclear blast occur out of the blue. Many people would assume in
experiencing this kind of autonomic shock that they are going through a
"Dark Night of the Soul" experience. For me the white death shock
proper occurred after the initial peak opening of the influx of spirit,
the shock being in direct proportion to the extent of the opening.
The White Death is associated with the ignition phase while the
die-offs happen after a certain time interval of transmutation has
occurred. The die-offs are quite different in sensation and physiology
to the White Death experience. The White Death is a state of septic shock
created by the NO, free radicals other metabolites produced during the
hyperactivation of the Influx. While the die-off is an elaborate
catabolic process choreographed by hormones etc...and involving the
immune cells cannibalizing body cells that cannot withstand the high
oxidation conditions. This later process is known in the traditions as
The Death and Resurrection.
To deal with the septic shock do gentle stretching and pushing
exercises and plenty of breathing. Get some form of bodywork or the
comfort of another human body to hug. Eat green vegetables and green
drinks and avoid heavy foods for a body in shock is not prepared for
digestion. Supplement at least with B Vitamins and antioxidants and
drink plenty of water. Take baths in Epsom salts in order to provide
the magnesium that will help turn on the relaxing parasympathetic
nervous system and loosen the contraction of the intestines allowing
(For more on this subject see Septic Shock of the White Death in the Nitric Oxide section.)
It is absolutely amazing that the most primitive functions in the
body turn themselves into the service of the highest biological faculty