CAUSATION: First there is prenatal and birth experience and development, which forms the original template.
REGULATON: Second there is orbitofrontal connection to the
limbic system built through affect-regulation (bonding) with the
ADAPTATION: (Family) Then there is years of socio-emotional
development built in direct response and adaptation to the Causation
and Regulation stages.
INDIVIDUATION: Differential in growth promotes a
psychosomatic tension between the old patterning and the new, which is
felt as yearning and seeking.
QUEST: This tension forces the individual to go on a
(Hero's) spiritual journey to find the limbic Attractors that trigger
dissolution/reconstruction in order to resolve the tension.
PERTURBATION: Then there has to be a disinhibition or
letting go of the general adaptation patterns. The psychic tension
itself can trigger this penetration of repressive mechanisms. Other
triggers include--romantic love, proximity to or shaktipat from a Guru,
drugs, acute shock, spiritual practices etc...
AWAKENING: A flowering of consequences occurs in a massive cataclysmic release of the tension stored in the growth differential.
DISSOLUTION: Followed by dissolution of former structures
and patterns--meltdown, collapse, crisis, Dark Nights, die-offs. The
various kinds of dark night have their own specific chemistry that is
in perfect correspondence to their associated up-cycle chemistry.
REFORMATION: New contemporary networks are built and
substantiated with use, showing greater phylogenic and ontogenic
integration between the parts. With the restructuring of the primary
matrix, the energy differential disappears leading to non-seeking and
Mathematics: the systematic treatment of magnitude, relationships
between figures and forms, and relations between quantities expressed
symbolically. Spirit moving through its symbolic and material
accumulations lives out a dramatic journey as an expression of the
layers, strengths and weaknesses within us. The interrelationship of
the aspects of ourselves, in our environment and in concert with cosmic
unfolding, constitutes a kind of spiritual mathematics. The Mathematics
of awakening is the hero’s journey.
How forcefully one pops depends on how far the prenatal and birth
experience was "resolved" through the following affect regulation
(primary bonding), and the degree of growth differential (contained as
stored tension). If both CAUSATION AND REGULATON phases are
traumatizing, then the lack of orbitofrontal-limbic control will bring
on an earlier awakening of a more catastrophic nature.
If birth was difficult yet the REGULATION phase was satisfied, then
the awakening will be later in life, but may be equally catastrophic
because the original trauma was more "hidden" by completed
prefrontal-limbic regulation. Such a person, because they are well
socio-emotionally adjusted may not be aware of the cataclysmic energies
held within the somatic memory of the birth trauma. So that when it is
unleashed it is a complete surprise and the well formed ego is blown to
smitherines by the emergent birthing throws of the infant within.
The thing with fetal life and birth is that it is pre-meaning. From
the perspective of the subject being born, no amount of cognitive
understanding will reconcile such an extreme experience...that is
moving from an aquatic being into an air breathing being through a very
tight passage, with a very real danger of dying. Nature herself makes
anesthetizing chemicals to protect the mother and child during such an
irrational ordeal. But if anesthetics (ether, morphine) are taken, both
mother and child are prevented from expressing their "protest" and so
this irrational screaming protest is held within the tissues for the
rest of their lives. If that protest response emerges later in life
then everything that person has built themselves to be is undone by
this fundamental chemistry, in order that the protest response be
liberated AS the state and form in which the trauma was registered.
Thus it is necessary for all filters and repressions to be suspended so
that the aquatic-infant can express its outrage. A protest response
withheld in a mother is likely to turn into chronic depression.