If we have had a trauma background there will be a
need to do more orbiofrontal-limbic neural networking by engaging in
such activities such as bonding, playing with kids, animals, martial
arts and coordination, motor skills, sensory stimulation work etc....
BEFORE you do any primal therapy and de-repression work. Normally
emotional regulation and the orbiofrontal-limbic link are built within
the course of healthy family life. But if there was abuse or deficiency
in this you must build up your container yourself as an adult. Then you
can go do peyote, rebirthing, holotropic breathing and other primal
therapies. First build then regress, build, regress and then all that
terror (protest-despair) contained in your original wiring will be
released in a manageable fashion. If you do the primal therapies
without doing the orbitofrontal work as well, (when normal
consciousness is perturbed by whatever means) your limbic brain and
brainstem will just take over and act out, for they are trying to purge
your original traumatic memory.
Because the activity of the limbic brain and brainstem is greatly
activated during Kundalini awakening, this offers the perfect
opportunity for old neurology to take wholesale control over your
normal cognitive functions in order to express its “protest”. It does
this because our normal repressive mechanisms are usually very strong
and keep it "down." The stronger your repressive mechanism
(despair-freeze) the more powerful the force below needs to be to knock
it out of commission in order for it to be heard. And one way or
another that traumatized infant and child WILL be heard. Perhaps you
could find some compassionate, creative, playful and "safe" ways for
the child to be heard, without having to give your life over to that
infant to do so. That is to consciously go “towards” the child with
open arms, rather than locking it up in the dungeon and treating it
like a dragon. You know how when you stop running from the demons in
your dreams, they turn out to be allies.
If you are in complete crisis you may need a surrogate mother or father
figure to help you to learn to self-regulate your autonomic system. Any
compassionate person with a reasonably well-developed nervous system
and vast understanding can serve as a balancing force. By undergoing
the crisis in emotional tandem you will probably avoid things
escalating to madness, prevent brain damage through panic and avoid
becoming prone to seizure.
Stay focused on something to look forward to, something you want to do,
build the image of that up in your mind, write it out and start making
plans. As soon as you engage yourself into some future fun thing, your
body-mind-spirit will come together. Your energies cannot ascend
coherently unless you are using active imagination in all five senses
to visualize where you want to go, who you want to be, and what you
want to do.
• Don’t panic, the energy of your state will tell you exactly what
to do if you listen deeper and deeper. Long walks in nature will
dissipate the most tenacious panic attacks.
• Drink two glasses of water and lie on the grass under a tree.
Breathing “harmony,” “order,” “peace” these through the heart and into
your solar plexus.
• Focus on something specific to look forward to, something you want to
do, even if it is just daydreaming, in order to move your
body-mind-spirit into coherent clarity.
• Try and get some sun on your naked body about half an hour a day sunbathing either early or late in the day would be ideal.
• Get someone to massage you regularly, or massage and stretch yourself and take long Epsom salt baths.
• Do the Inner Arts and especially the Pot of Gold, dropping further
into the feltsense intelligence of the body. Placing what you think is
the antidote state or emotions into your organs.
• Play soothing music such as Byron Metcalf’s Wachuma’s Wave, Steve
Roach, Amethystium, Enya, Liquid Mind, Evanescence. www.pandora.com/
“Magic individuals who create their own destiny and are masters of
their fate draw from the strength of the positive current.” The Magic
of Everyday Life, Maria Szepes. Perhaps my very favorite book.
Rudi: 14 Years With My Teacher by John Mann, is a fabulously reassuring
book on the psychological aspects of cultivating kundalini.
Osho's lateral mind and all embracing permission are an antidote to the
punitive spirituality and repressive social structures of Western
society. Thus Osho’s voice and writing is very reassuring to anyone in
crisis mode. Especially his Autobiography of a Spiritually Incorrect